Philipians 3 vs 13-14
Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.
You know what, in the world it never went well for me. I wish I could tell you I was the girl that guys treated well, or the one who did well in school, or the one who things went smoothly for. If I told you that I would be lying.
No I was the one who was constantly rejected, used, discarded and left broken hearted. I was the one who couldn’t concentrate, I was the one who was written off. I will tell it as it was – I never did well in the world. It made me hard, cold and left me without an ounce of self respect.
Even with all that, to let go was hard. After all that had happened to me and all the trouble I had found myself; I had trust issues. How on earth was I supposed to trust God when everyone I thought I could trust had let me down.
There came a point where I had to let it all go and walk on water, deciding to give the only one who had never forsaken me chance. Guess what? He has been faithful to his word and every day I see changes in me. When I look back a realise he has dealt with so many things; taken brokenness and replaced it with grace, love and peace. I used to be so angry, but everyday I see God’s restoring grace.
Am I still learning? Yes I am.
I know there is a long way for me to go, but I will give glory to Christ for all He has done right here right now.
Great is our God!